RP, Dreams, My Dark Fic Past

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This morning was hell for me. I woke up around three in the morning in excruciating pain. I'm happily doped up on medication for it now, which I'd like to think added to my dreams about me, Pyro, Magneto and Superman going on a crime spree to find three sacred gems. Superman was being mind-controlled by me, else he wouldn't have gone on a crime spree. Or let all those whales loose in the streets of Boston after he flooded it. Sawyer from Lost was in there somewhere, at a sleazy little hotel. But I probably would have had strange dreams anyway.

So, I was talking with ranchangrnl about fandom experiences and starting out in fan fiction. The first fics I wrote are long gone, swallowed by the great cavernous void of cyberspace. My Highlander Mary Sue series. My Babylon 5 Zack/Lyta schmoop. That's all gone. I have a printed out copy of one Babylon 5 fic, and a horrible Due South epic I once wrote. Why I saved these things, I'm never sure. Except that it's fun to go back and see how far I've come. And while those are gone, others still remain.

I come before you now to share with you the stories of my old fan fiction. The fan fiction full of cliches, purple prose and mary sues. Because I wrote it. I wrote it in the grand tradition of fanwit fiction. Back when I honestly believed characters that were half demon/half cat with wings and super powers were actually a good idea. Back when I saw nothing wrong with having an entire cast fall head over heels for my chaos demon reincarnated as a powerful sorceress - even though she was shagging the villain. I did it all. Super powers, amazing beauty, canon-warping, reincarnation-resulting-in-split-personalities (both of which were awe-inspiring and amazing, of course), animal bonding powers, the ability to save the soul of the twisted, power hungry villain...

There are two fandoms for which fics of this nature remain. The Halfblood Chronicles, and the Aladdin TV show. Yes, you heard me correctly. And if you're truly curious, I am willing to post these old fics here, so we can all look back and laugh. Because I'm not embarrassed of these god awful pieces of fantasy. They were a starting point, and I've come so very far in writing that it's nice to look back and remember where I started.

So come on folks! Share your stories of your embarrassing fiction! Share your tales of Mary-Sues, canon rape, ideas-that-seemed-good-at-the-time and everything else. Look back with me and laugh, and be thankful for those first stories that set you on the path.

I've Never Done This Before...

But it's been a long time coming.

I did a Friends List cut today. I removed people I never talk to, people who don't update their journal, people I have nothing in common with whatsoever, and people who have defriended me. Most of my posts are un-locked, anyway. The standard ettiquitte seems to be 'let me know if you want me to keep you friended!' but...I really doubt the people I defriended have any interest in sticking around.

It's no secret that I've moved away from Harry Potter fandom. It just doesn't interest me any longer. I've written everything I wanted to write, said everything I wanted to say and done everything I've wanted to do. I have no interest in the final book, and no interest in most of the fandom any longer. I've met some amazing people through Harry Potter fandom, and I have a lot of fond memories of the many, many years where it was my only playground. And without HP, I never would have met my amazing and wonderful mikazuki. We met through the lupin_snape community, and as most of you know, she is the love of my life. Some amazing things came out of HP fandom for me, but I'm pretty much done. The things that used to be important to me aren't anymore, is what it pretty much boils down to. I'm at a different place in my life, and my interests have changed. It's been a fun, emotional, whacky ride, and I'm eternally thankful for it.

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And I feel so melodramatic right now. This was just going to be an Flist cut announcement when I started it an hour ago, but it turned into this. O.o