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said_scarlett) wrote2007-12-22 11:56 am
said_scarlett) wrote2007-12-22 11:56 am
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Home, Home For the Holidays
Holy hell, how is Christmas Eve day after tomorrow? Where did the time go?
I am home again. On my good connection, yay. I also got a card from my Uncle. It's sappy and whatnot, but hey, it's a card. I love Christmas cards, but I kind of missed the boat this year when people did their Christmas Card posts. I just really wasn't able to check my Flist. Christmas is the time of year I get mail. I love getting mail. Though this year I have gotten nice little surprises in the mail - mostly courtesy of![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
chocomimi, who always cheers me up! - but it just doesn't feel like Christmas without the cards and whatnot. Ah well.
I have this horrible sense of 'growing up'. Which is ridiculous, considering my age, but this is my first Christmas where I really feel like a grown up. No surprises, no wonder, no joy. Just trying to keep on top of each household disaster as it comes, and wondering how the hell I'm going to pay next month's bills after blowing all my money on gifts and UPS - which I may need to call, as still only one package has made it to its destination.
I haven't even watched my yearly Christmas specials. I just feel so blah this year, and I hate it. Christmas always used to be my favorite time of year, but... I don't know. I just don't feel it this year. Probably because it's been so hellaciously craptastic this month. And I keep trying to tell myself I'm just having a Griswold Christmas, but...
I don't know. The spirit just isn't with me. I wish it was, though.
I am home again. On my good connection, yay. I also got a card from my Uncle. It's sappy and whatnot, but hey, it's a card. I love Christmas cards, but I kind of missed the boat this year when people did their Christmas Card posts. I just really wasn't able to check my Flist. Christmas is the time of year I get mail. I love getting mail. Though this year I have gotten nice little surprises in the mail - mostly courtesy of
chocomimi, who always cheers me up! - but it just doesn't feel like Christmas without the cards and whatnot. Ah well.I have this horrible sense of 'growing up'. Which is ridiculous, considering my age, but this is my first Christmas where I really feel like a grown up. No surprises, no wonder, no joy. Just trying to keep on top of each household disaster as it comes, and wondering how the hell I'm going to pay next month's bills after blowing all my money on gifts and UPS - which I may need to call, as still only one package has made it to its destination.
I haven't even watched my yearly Christmas specials. I just feel so blah this year, and I hate it. Christmas always used to be my favorite time of year, but... I don't know. I just don't feel it this year. Probably because it's been so hellaciously craptastic this month. And I keep trying to tell myself I'm just having a Griswold Christmas, but...
I don't know. The spirit just isn't with me. I wish it was, though.