It wasn't. At all. But I no longer get seized with the paranoid delusions that there are great conspiracies out to destroy me or assume everyone hates me. It turned out to be a good thing, and alerted myself and others around me that I actually do suffer from paranoid delusions, I'm not super messed up self esteem wise. So yay?

Nah, I've been easing back in to online communication. Gonna be getting myself some though! :D